:: Mindrella's Life ::

:: Saturday, April 19, 2003 ::

Okay I can't get my comments to work or show up and I've been working on it for about a half hour and now I can't see straight from staring at html for that long. I'm too tired tonight to deal with it. I'll have to try and fix it tomorrow night but I am determined. And I'm going to do a web site? We're all doomed! Heeheehee! Happy Easter everyone!

:: Melinda 10:42 PM [+]

First of all, I can't believe that they found Laci Peterson's body and that they arrested her husband in San Diego!? What's up with that? And it's so sad although I figured that she was already dead since no one had a record of her giving birth. Such a great sadness and I pray that her family can now find solace and closure to such an awful experience. My prayers are with them.

And What was I thinking in creating this site? One more thing to add to my already hectic life. And for sure my life has been very very hectic this week. Things started to crumble around me, I may have lost a friend and because of things that have been happening in my life the past week or so I also faced the possibility of losing a new friend which would have been devestating to me. But things ended up turning out all right in the end. I won't end up losing the new friend and I hope I haven't lost the other friend as well. For those that are in the know, y'all know what I'm talking about. It's been a very frustrating and heartwrenching week. Not to mention that a couple of weeks ago I had to face making one of the hardest decisions of my life and I was just reminded of it last night. Two weeks ago today I had to put my beloved Greystoke to sleep because he was a very very sick kitty. There was no guarantee of hope for him. He had severe diabetes and kidney problems which evidently go hand in hand with cats as they get older. He was 12 and my big lover kitty. He was half-Siamese and half-Persian but looked like a big grey Siamese cat. The vet told me that he had to have round-the-clock care just to get his diabetes under control and then they could take a closer look at his kidneys. It was going to be very expensive for round-the-clock care and then there was no guarantee that his kidneys were going to be okay. So I made the only other decision I could make. It was very hard but I couldn't do that to him and put him through all that only to be faced with the same decision to make 3 days later. So I said my goodbyes and stayed with him to the end. My friend Jen works for the vet and was there for me, taking care of Greystoke and held my hand through everything giving me morale support. I love her for that and will forever be grateful to her for rearranging her schedule on that Saturday to come into work and be with me. I doubt she'll ever read this but if she does YOU ROCK GIRL AND I LOVE YA! I don't know why I'm posting all this. I guess it's therapeutic for me to do this. It makes it final. It's my way of saying goodbye I guess.

But life goes on. Training is going okay. I added more to my runs and more runs during my week. Now I run about 4 days now and I try to run outside instead of on the treadmill. I can't believe what a difference there is between the two. Running outside is much harder and I found I can't run as far when I run outside. I need to find out when the Camp Pendleton 10k Mud Run is. I really hope it's in October and not June because a mile and a half is a far cry from the 6 miles I'll need to run for the 10k. UGH! I haven't been as diligent in my workouts this week either. My weight training is way off and I can feel it. I worked out my legs really hard on Monday and they were hurting most of the week. Plus I took spin class 3 times this week but I skipped my turbo kickboxing class. Had to have a tradeoff. My legs were way too sore to jump around in kickboxing. Will have to go next week for sure. Brian's been kicking my ass in our training sessions though. We're really getting into boxing which I love. It's so much fun and such a stress reliever.

Food wise I'm really sucking. I've been so stressed that I haven't been eating at all. Or hardly anything. Imagine that one -- me not eating at all instead of eating everything in sight. Never thought I'd see the day when I could say that. Doug and Woody both made a comment at happy hour last night that I looked thinner. I said in a week, please I don't think so. I played it off but they're probably right. But not eating isn't good either. I'm really really tired and have no energy because I haven't really stopped my workouts at all. Although I did run into a friend last night at happy hour that I haven't seen in ages and he freaked out when he saw me. The only reason he recognized me was because I was with Doug, otherwise he said he would've walked right by me. I still get a little freaked out when people do that to me because I still look in the mirror and see the old me. Doug found some old pictures of me and gave them to me. I look at those pictures and wonder who the hell that woman is in them? That can't be me can it? But I know it is and when I see those pictures I am just amazed at what I've done and where I am at this point in my life.

Anyway, that's enough for right now. I think this entry is long enough as it is. I'm trying to figure out how to put in a comment section. I think I have but we'll see if I get a comment box when I post this. Need to remember to keep this up.

:: Melinda 10:10 PM [+]