:: Mindrella's Life ::

:: Friday, April 29, 2005 ::

What to do

A lot is happening in my life right now - some good, most bad (read: lets just rip my heart out right now) and a few things indifferent. I've been internalizing everything lately which is probably not the best thing for me to do but then again I'm not the best when it comes to expressing my feelings (read: I usually come across as a royal bitch). Actually most of the time I feel like I'm ready to explode which is definitely affecting my health and if you've read any of my past few entries, you know that my health right now is anything but good. I've had to make a lot of decisions the past couple of months - some as easy as whether to buy a new car or keep fixing my old (I'm leaning toward fixing my old) to stuff that's more complex and way more emotional. Because of this I've been forced to reprioritize my life and put a lot of things on the back burner (like skating) which isn't making me happy or productive.

Anyway I'm feeling a cleansing coming on even though a lot of what's been going on is personal. But writing in my journal isn't working for me right now and all I have to show for that effort are some great angry doodles. I hope that by posting some of this on a very public forum might help me put things into perspective a little. Or it just might make me look like a raving lunatic that needs to get a life. I hear that padded cells are quite comfortable and soundproof too.

So to all 1.87 readers of this blog you have been duly warned - vents/rants/frustrations are on the horizon.

to be continued . . .

:: Melinda 4:52 PM [+]